Trying to come up with my next plan, but I really just feel like i'm coming up with nothing.
I can go back to work in Kzoo for the Christmas parties. but my old boss would have to pay me more money to make it worth it to drive to Kzoo just to work for a night. I thought I might be able to stay the night at some places, but i no longer think that is an option. I thought I had a relationship that was very important in my life. Apparently, I am finding out, that I am not as important in his life.
I am a Christian girl. This changes the way you look at dating and potential dates drastically.
I am looking for a guy who has the same beliefs and values as me. I am looking for a guy who is okay with me not having sex until I get married. (This is when guys run away). I want a God-fearing man who knows how to treat a woman. I question whether there is a guy who can treat me how Jesus would want him to.
I thought I had a guy who fit a lot of those qualities. But I never really had him. We were never in a typical relationship. We never talked about dating, but that's what it was. I cared about him, he cared about me.... we were more than friends.
I am so tired of opening myself up to people, having them open up to me, and then having them run away, because they are too scared to be in a relationship.
If you are too scared to be in a relationship, you are going to be ALONE for a LONG time.
How can you NOT take a chance with someone who makes you smile, makes you laugh, and you can tell anything to?
I want to have someone I love, love me back.
Is that too much to ask? I keep praying.... praying about so many things. Wish I would get more answers.
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